Thoughts, poems, prayers, sermons, and more from the Rector
of St. Peter's Episcopal Church on the Green.
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Wisdom for Today
The theme of light and darkness in my life ... has been a constant rhythm. At first I regarded darkness as a menacing chaos which threatened to disintegrate me. The horror of a storm at sea when I first crossed the Channel left me with an especial dread of that devouring Mother. But I have now come to see darkness as that primeval chaos over which the Spirit of God hovers, re-creating me, bringing me to another birth. We have so many small deaths to die. I value my time in darkness, my not knowing, even my pain, as I then simply have to abandon myself to God. So my prayer becomes a little more humble; I stop trying to organize my own life and I rest in him. Often this self-abandonment comes only when I have inwardly shed my tears of anger and limitation and have accepted again that God is greater than I.
Paula Fairlie, osb
from the book "The Monastic Way: Ancient Wisdom for Contemporary Living"